Posted by raisinb on April 9, 2008, at 16:45:34
In the past several months, I've been making a lot of progress in therapy, despite all the drama. Or, at least, I'm starting to see and integrate a lot of the progress I made before.
But it also seems like I've been fighting off a level of depression I haven't experienced in a long time. I feel profoundly bored and disconnected from everything in my life. In the work arena, for instance, things are up and down and, in the past, I've often dreaded coming in or experienced intense rage about work conflicts, but lately, I wake up and feel--like--what's it all for? I do the job, but it seems no longer as meaningful to me--both in good and bad ways--as it was.
I have also, most of my life, been searching for love to fill deep holes in myself. Recently, I've realized that those holes are no longer so deep, and also that I have so many people in my life who love me. But lately those relationships feel kind of--boring, or like I'm not sure why I'm in them.
It's like, I am seeing a future in which many of my goals are met, but I feel like...what do I do now?
Has anyone else experienced this?
poster:raisinb
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