Posted by Happyflower on April 8, 2008, at 12:30:05
I called him yesterday when I got all upset because I felt unsafe even in my own house. He was on lunch and I got to talk to him, I didn't even ask, the secretary just put me through. He tried to tell me what I was feeling was normal considering the trauma therapy we were doing and the feelings of unsafe I felt a lot at home. I took a xanax and went to school and I was fine.
But what made me call him?
I could have called my DH or anyone else, but I called him. I have never done that before.I don't want to rely on him in that way because I know he can't be there for me all the time. I don't want to get into the habit of calling him.
Now I know it will come up on Thurs. in session, but I feel like freak. I don't want to count on him, I don't want him to be that important to me. But I called, he helped me, but I wished I didn't call. I don't want him to become important to me, I don't want to count on him, I wish I didn't call. It wasn't really an emergency, I was just starting to panic. Why did I call him? auugghhh!
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thread:822210
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