Posted by Happyflower on April 7, 2008, at 11:01:09
My personality is one that keeps trying to improve my situation if it needs it whether mental health or other stuff. I have motivation to heal myself, that come from inside of me like a survivor or something. I can get depressed, but eventually I will do what I need to do, talk to my doctor or whatever.
Maybe it is because I am a mother and my kids deserve to have a good mom. Maybe it is because people depend on me so I can't stay in a funk for a long time and eventually go over the top.I just don't think I would let myself get that bad, I am too much of a survior for that. I guess part of me knows I can survive whatever and nothing even childhood doesn't last forever. I don't know exactly what I am saying or why, but it seems like there is something inside of me that keeps me going. Maybe it is why I survived what i did in childhood without as much harm as one would expect.
My T thinks there is something special inside that made me survive my mom while still being somewhat functional. But for me, there isn't any other choice. In some way I feel we are in charge of our life and it is up to us to change and heal if we want to bad enough, but we have to want to change and that is scary sometimes.
poster:Happyflower
thread:822021
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