Posted by crushedout on March 26, 2008, at 12:41:22
In reply to Re: How did it go?, posted by Annierose on March 26, 2008, at 6:44:22
Hey. So I have a loaner computer today so I can post.The session was hard. I basically explained to her that it felt like the right thing for me to end therapy right now, and although she didn't "recommend" it, she said she respected my opinion. The only issue then was whether we would meet a few more times to terminate. She thinks it would be good for us to; I'm not sure I see the point because going in there is very painful for me and the further away I get from my sessions, the happier and freer I feel. And I have enough hard stuff to deal with in my life right now that I don't need therapy bringing me down, even if it's just for a day or a few hours.
I'm extremely angry at her for a number of things. She does not seem remorseful enough to me and I don't think she ever will be. Now she is also insisting as a condition to my seeing her that I don't do anymore research on her. I said, "you mean you won't go through the termination process with me unless i agree to that condition?" She looked kind of unsure but said yes. I said, "that's just stupid."
Honestly, I don't even want to do anymore research on her--I just object on principal to her imposing conditions on our TERMINATION PROCESS. It might be different if we were continuing therapy together.
We made an appointment for Monday but I feel like I should cancel.
I'm doing surprisingly well. But on Monday, I was very depressed after the session. It feels like a big loss in my life and it feels very, very sad.
Thanks to everyone for your support.
poster:crushedout
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