Posted by Maxime on March 21, 2008, at 13:46:24
In reply to I think I'm evil *trigger*, posted by Deneb on March 20, 2008, at 22:45:17
Deneb, has anyone suggested that you do DBT? You seem to have all the criteria to meet the borderline personality disorder. Sadly, so do I. So please don't think I am being mean by telling you this.Thinking you are evil is one of the symptoms of BPD. For me, I feel like I am toxic and that no one will ever care about me. People with BPD often they think they bad, but don't really know why.
Your repeated ODs are also symptomanic of BPD.
I imagine that the reason they didn't give you attention is because they don't want to encourage your behaviour. I am not saying that you should be treated that way, but that is how the medical community sees BPD.
What if you did something to get people's attention by doing something POSITIVE. For example, when I told my short term psychologist what I had done to find another psychologist he was pleased and told me he was proud of me. That made me feel good and I wanted to continue so that he would continue to give me praise. Everytime I did something GOOD for myself, he praised me. The ODs, the cutting and the eating disorder did not get much attention ..... because he didn't want to encourage that behaviour.
I know one thing about BPD ... it hurts like hell. We live in a painful dark world.
I hope you will try to get some help, but do it in a positive way. Look up DBT in Google and you will find sites that have some exercises for you to do. Although I think you need to be in a DBT group.
Hope you feel better.
Maxime
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