Posted by frida on March 11, 2008, at 12:13:03
Hi all...
I haven't seen my T regularly since December. First, she went away until February. Then we could see each other only once every 2 weeks and this week I'll see her again. The last time I saw her, I was finding it sooo hard to connect and feel her with me. I was in need of reassurance and she hadn't reassured me in a long time that it is ok to call, or write, as she used to do. So I've been feeling far away from her, and it's been hard to feel this way, so distant and disconnected, as if i had lost her.
I sent her an email this week asking her if we'd see each other this week and if the next one she could see me another day so we wouldn't lose another week and i included a dream I had and she wrote back, warmly, saying we'd see each other both weeks and that she'd like to discuss the dream with me.
Now i feel really nervous about that dream and what she could see in it! I am trying to figure out what it could mean and why she'd be interested in discussing it.
I thought i could share it here and see if you have some ideas?the dream:
"I dreamt..
that I went to see you but you had your office somewhere else...
I sat and listened to you talking and I felt moved just to listen to your voice
I felt comforted by you
I took off my shoes and was trying to explain how I felt...
I said that I felt great urgency, that I needed something right now, and I burst into tears because I couldn't find the words to express what i needed and the pain and fear I felt.
I wanted to tell you something that had happened. (some men had chased me and forced me).
I couldn't stop crying and you said that everything would be ok.
then, you left..I stayed around, and realized that I couldn't find my shoes to leave and that I'd have to go outside without them...
I found an old lady that inspired calm, she had light blue eyes and a very sad look...I asked her who she was and she said she was your mother.
I said to her that I was leaving, that I didn't want to bother anyone, that I just had to find something to wear because i had lost my shoes, and i'd leave immediately, that i was so so sorry i was there.She said she knew I was your patient and that I loved you a lot and didn't want to bother.
She said you had left to go running and to buy some orange juice and that you'd be back in 20 minutes. I didn't want to be there because I didn't want to bother and I didn't want you to find me still there. So I tried to find what to wear so i could leave. She said that if i wanted, i could take some shoes that were there on the floor, so i wouldn't have to go out without shoes and then i could give them to you the next time.i accepted, said goodbye and thanks, and I went downstairs. I sat down and a kitty came to me. I petted him and asked him with tears, to please be there next time I'd see you. The cat let me know somehow that he'd be there.
That was it...Weird...
Thanks for any ideas..
Frida
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