Posted by Poet on February 26, 2008, at 14:52:14
She said that she wishes she could give me a job, because she understands how much work means to me. She said that my thinking I'm a failure even though I did nothing to cause my unemployment is my playing that old tape again. The negative thoughts are overpowering any positive things that I otherwise would acknowledge about my abilities.
I told her my dream that I ended therapy. She asked if I would have been ready to do that or at least see her less often before the crisis. I said I really felt good while she was away and the dream was so believable. Of course being sarcastic Poet I also said "go away more often I do better without you." She laughed and said you will know when you're ready to end therapy and I will celebrate with you.
She said I've made alot of progress since I started therapy and I need to remember that. She said it took a very long time for me to allow myself to be dependent on her and to trust her. She said she thinks my relationship with her is the first one where I have allowed myself to trust someone and to depend on them that they won't betray me. So I guess for me dependence is progress.
I am still very much depressed, but T is there for me and everyone here is, too. Thank you all again for your support.
Poet
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