Posted by DAisym on February 15, 2008, at 20:00:00
In reply to Please follow civility guidelines, posted by Deputy Dinah on February 15, 2008, at 18:36:36
I knew when I decided to post about this session that it was a risk. I knew it had the potential to draw criticism or be the target of ridicule. And while I feel hurt about what was written, I also feel surrounded by friends and support. Thank you to those who emailed or called to warn me before reading. But as I said to all of you, if I had chosen to not post because I was afraid of a hurtful response, it would really change the nature of this board and how I participate here. We have to share our experiences in order to help each other. Not everyone is helped by all the experiences shared, but not sharing helps no one.
I learned a little while ago that there are certain posters or certain threads I shouldn't read. They upset me. So I just don't read them. I have control over this and I refuse to give away this control, especially to anyone who might be trying to hurt me or ridicule me on purpose. I keep myself safe, as much as possible, on Babble. Because Babble is a source of reflection and support that I choose for myself. If it becomes too upsetting, there are other sites to go to.
So, at least for now, I want to keep posting about my experience. I want to write the details sometimes, even if it gets annoying long. If I choose to hold back, it won't be because of a fearful place, but because I'm not ready to share it yet.
Today was the first day in a long time that I've felt pretty good. I felt stronger, more in charge and way less depressed. So that tells me that what we did yesterday was a good thing to do - for me.
Please don't get yourself blocked or pbc'd over this. It isn't worth it. I'm OK, really. Let's keep this board what it has always been - the quieter, more reflective part of Babble.
Hugs,
Daisy
poster:DAisym
thread:812828
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20080210/msgs/813004.html