Posted by star008 on February 14, 2008, at 22:46:46
sorry i haven't been around. just too much work lately..too depressed.. i don't have any hope right now. i read all the stuff on the net and it all says that depression is treatable but for me it hasn't been. i go to T I see p-doc.. has been going on for years.. have been on meds for over ten years and in therapy even longer. it doesn't get better.. all i get is short breaks from feeling like total s**t.. doesn't make sense to me to live like this... what is the point of sitting around feeling like s**t and waiting till i die? like i am here doing time and just waiting till it is over. why would i quit smoking and start taking care of myself better?? Why would i even want to??So i can live longer?? i have tried and tried and for me derpression has not been treatable and i wish all the websites would stop saying that it is and making things all bright the cheerful and saying there is hope..
i am sorry. i know this is negative but it is how i feel. i am tired and don't want to continue to live anymore right now.
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thread:812811
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