Posted by rskontos on February 12, 2008, at 7:12:21
Well today my therapist and I aired all the past hurts and it feels like we started over or started at a good place. He addressed all the bad I put in my email to him saying all the stuff like, do you still want to be my t, do you regret taking me on, etc. He told me that he does feel like he can help me. That it is up to him to make therapy a safe place for me. He is committed to making me well. That my increased level of dissociation is normal for what we are getting into. That the stuff we are getting into is actually dangerous for me. It is a whole new way of life for me to try and blend everyone. That he hope I will get to a place where dissociation won't be necessary and everyone will see it one day. We discussed alot and yet managed to keep it light enough that I only dissociated once on him. And this time I managed to remain with him versus going away entirely. We talk about that. We talked about how he looks puzzled and how he is sleepy sometimes. He has trouble sleeping at night but that isn't because he is bored (my take). He wants me to tell him immediately anything that makes me uncomfortable not to stew.
So all in all, it was a good session that helped me see he is committed. He said I do see you getting the kind of life you deserve. I have had patients I don't think I can help and that is frustating to a therapist. I see your pain and what to help you through it. You have been through so much it is time to get it out and end it. He said it won't be easy for you though. It will be tough. But we need to, no I need to do things to help you in here feel safe. So we talked about that. I asked him alot of questions and feel better about the answers.rsk
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