Posted by Happyflower on February 6, 2008, at 23:29:17
My sessions get more amazing as time goes on. He really knows his stuff and he is really helping me so much. I am in the hardest part I think, since there is nothing else to really talk about other than my childhood past. But yet he is so gentle warm and sensitive with me, I feel okay to let myself go their. I can just be me, no masks to make him feel better, just me and the truth. It is still hard, but yet I have hope I can really heal.
When I told him today of my speech I gave in class about the things I learned about Baby Lia, he had tears in his eyes, he was shaken up by it because it reminded him of his eulogy he gave at his brothers's funeral 1 1/2 years ago. He had the same message as my speech, and that is to live each day to the fullest and tell those you love how much they mean to you because you never know when your last day will be or theirs. I was moved that he was moved, it was such a bonding moment I will never forget.
When I gave the speech, I got so much strength and had this need to tell them about the important stuff in life that really matters. I could of given a speech on hobbies, etc, but for me what I learned from others including Baby Lia are more important. I had this inner drive that just compelled me to get it out that day. I got an 88%, but mostly because I went way over the allowed time. But my T told me today, that what I did, and how it helped me personally to get it all out, that inner feeling is way more important than my grade in terms of my emotional development. I am starting to feel good about the 88% because it helped me so much.
Good stuff, therapy, I am so happy I have him, I made the right choice to fire my old one, I can really see that now.
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