Posted by muffled on January 14, 2008, at 11:06:20
So for me this word has been HUGE.
Acceptance:I am accepting that I got mental issues, but that it is OK. I function mostly OK when I am not stressed.
I am accepting that as a child I got hurt, and the inside kids are gonna act up w/triggers, but if I am kind to them, they settle faster.
I accept the truth that my bad feelings DO eventually pass, and there ARE things I can do, that are lifegiving, to help them pass better, or make them more tolerable.
I am accepting(fearfully!) that my T DOES in fact care about me.
I am accepting that I am NOT a disgusting person inside.
I do NOT contaminate others. That is a wrong message I have in my head.
I am accepting that that ikid is just a kid and she coped as best she could. SHE WAS JUST A KID.
I am accepting that I am human and do make mistakes.
I am starting to think maybe God not gonna crush me like a bug. Though I still pissed at him, thats a work in progress still....
I am accepting that I been in a bad place for quite awhile and my life is rather in dissarray. But I am working on getting things in order.
I am accepting that sometimes I will fall on my face, but that I can get back up and keep going. I have my knowledge to help me. Others want to help me(ouch...)
So I AM learning.
Acceptance.
I didn't know it was such a big deal to just accept.
That it'd make me feel better.
For now anyways. I reckon I'll take what I can get.
I expect I'll get triggered and screw up, but the big thing to remember for me, is that I just goto get back up and keep going.
I hope this lasts awhile.
I kinda get scared when things go good. Cuz sometimes things can be all good and then thats when the hurt comes :-(
But I spose thats old stuff too :-(
And I goto learn bout emotions too. How to let them be.
I wanna help others. I wanna get well so I can help others.
M
poster:muffled
thread:806390
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