Posted by muffled on December 25, 2007, at 2:12:06
Its hard.
But its a good thing.
I get involved in the T process, and mebbe learn I CAN lean on another human being and not have them run screaming in horror from me....
So I allow myself to lean some, and T tries to set a good example of being supportive.
So I goto T 1x/wk, and email in btwn alot. Damn near a mail a day really. Cuz then i feel connected somehow. T don't usu answer but mebbe 1 or two mails. And thats good. I just want to feel connected. Its enuf to know she reads them, and she sends a read receipt so i know she has.
So we quite connected.
But then comes......Christmas....a holiday. And T needs a break, and this us understood and accepted, even welcomed. A fresh T who takes care is a better T, than an overlaoded burnt out one.
But the point of this whole post is....its weird.
Cuz T say 'lean on me', but then holiday comes, and T is GONE. No lean.... Its just weird.
But like I say I think its good to have a break now and again for me as well.
And I COULD contact T if things were going terribly wrong. But ONLY then.
The boundaries are good, and I like them. Its just weird to some part of me.
Cuz T's will say they there for you...but they not.
But they are...
But not really.
Arrrggghhh.
I dunno what I rambling about.
M
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