Posted by Kath on December 23, 2007, at 14:46:43 [reposted on December 24, 2007, at 1:51:27 | original URL]
In reply to embarrassed, posted by Melia on December 23, 2007, at 12:37:28
> I have been seeing a wonderful therapist for almost a year now, who has helped me a great deal. With the daemons of Bulimia and leaving a abusive relationship, and becoming a single mom. However I have had some major stresses there past few months and the other week just tipped the ice berg. I called my therapist hysterically bawling and in a total break down. We talked for about 20 minutes and then she helped me relax a little. Asked me to call back later that afternoon for a follow up call, because she was booked all day solid. So I did, but I am so embarrassed to ever go back and see her after what happened. I was so hysterical so has to think I am such an unstable loser. I am scared to stop therapy because she has helped me so much, but I am just to embarrassed to ever look her in the eye again.
Hi Melia & Welcome,
First of all congratulations on taking care of yourself & making HUGE positive changes in your life!!!!!!!!
Please be gentle with yourself Melia. The fact that your T would talk with you on the phone & have you call her back shows that she's wonderful, WANTS to be there for you & takes her responsibility as your therapist seriously, I think.
You deserve to continue to have her help you, especially as she's familiar with your situation, etc. Her job is to continue to help you.
Do you think you could phone her & let her know how you feel? I really hope you can consider this Melia. I've found that if I'm really uncomfortable about something that involves another person, the best thing for me to do (if the other person is 'safe' & is not likely to hurt me in any way) is to tell them how I feel. If I'm afraid to tell my husband something in case he'll get upset, I will often start the conversation with "I need to talk about something, but I'm really nervous that you'll get upset." It feels like taking a deep breath to get that off my chest.
I highly doubt that your therapist thinks your an unstable loser!! If you've been under stress for the last while, the added stresses of this "holiday season" probably just tipped the scales for you & the mere fact that she was booked all day solid shows that you're not the only person who was desparately needing her help that day.
I sincerely hope that you do go back to your therapist.
Saying all that, I hear you & can understand how you could feel SO embarrassed! You have nothing to be ashamed of though. If people didn't have problems & meltdowns, therapists wouldn't have jobs!
Let us know how you're doing.
luv, Kath
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