Posted by muffled on December 20, 2007, at 22:48:30
In reply to Re: update I just got back/triggers » rskontos, posted by lovelorn on December 20, 2007, at 20:21:28
Glad you stepped up and got p-doc appt.
Sometimes you just goto shop around and find the right fit.
I have a part that hates Godstuff, and parts that like it. Sometimes I can listen to Godstuff, sometimes I tell my T to stop, cuz it just makes me very angry.
I hope you can find meds that work for you quickly. I hope this will be a good p-doc. I think you need to be pretty straight w/p-doc so he can choose the best meds for you. Just try and relax and not sweat about who gonna be there at appt. Even if its not a good one, you can always call him later and explain. So try and relax, and feel good about the fact that your ARE being proactive and doing what you need to do, and GOOD for you for doing it!!!!!!!
I dunno wassup w/your T and meds, but mebbe you getting a mixed message due to switching?
Once your head is calmed some, hopefully it will be ALOT easier for you to settle down.
Its just so hard to do anything productive with so much switching. But I guess each day, you learn a little bit more bout your peeps, and who is who, and what their good and bad points are. Then it makes it much easier to deal with them, cuz you can relate to them on their level, and then its less misunderstandings and stuff. So I guess every day that goes by, you ARE moving ahead, and gaining ground....even if it feels so slow.
As far as bad peeps, I dunno bout yours, but my worst peep who I thot was evil....well I dunno, its not ALL bad. Its kinda scarey, but it DOES have a moral code where it can't hit unless in self defense and stuff. And a part I thot was all good, LOL, well....she got her flaws!!!! So just like dealing w/people IRL, I try to engage my peeps better side as much as possible. Cuz other than one who is proly too dammaged, the rest all got SOME good point about them....
So I wish you some inner peace for a bit.
I hope you can just say WTF and just go to p-doc appt and just whatever will be will be. Freaking about it won't help, and its just gonna be what it is. Its just the first appt. And hopefully you will be able to get some releif SOON.
I send you good thots.
Best wishes.
M
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