Posted by sunnydays on December 12, 2007, at 14:34:29
My T and I had a good session yesterday. I left just feeling like he was radiating warmth towards me, and I felt like I was radiating warmth back. Such a nice feeling. We talked some about a memory I had sent in an email... I never thought of it as a particularly big deal and it's one I wouldn't have thought to bring up except it fit there, but he said it stopped him in his tracks. I just am surprised sometimes by things I think that aren't that bad that are so shocking to him.
And we just had a good session. I talked some about all the ways I feel like I'm such a different person now than I used to be, and he agreed. And I was waving my hands around as I often do when I can't find words and I said, "Yeah, just read my hands," so it was kind of a joke the rest of the session.
And then towards the end I got really sad, and my T talked about grief and we worked on figuring out what I am grieving. Because this is a sadness too deep for words. And at one point I said, "Sometimes I just want you to be like the perfect mother and just take all the sadness away." And he said, "What was that just then when you said that? That sort of sigh you made, and how your body just dropped?" I said, "I think that I realized that you probably can't take the sadness away." He said, "Well, the flip side of that is that maybe I can't take the sadness away because it's something only you can take away from yourself. And you are working on it, and it will go away. And I can help you take the sadness away for yourself."
I said, "Do you think the sadness will ever be gone all the way?" And he said, "Well, I think it will be gone so much that you only think about it and feel sad once in a very great while."That was just the perfect thing to say. He's so great.
sunnydays
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