Posted by rskontos on November 29, 2007, at 11:32:12
I have done a lot of thinking and came up with lots of answers for myself. But am in tons of turmoil with inner/parts peeps. (Someone on here called Muffled's people her peeps and I just loved that so if you remember who you are thank you this is how I refer to them in my head)
I have a song I found that has helped me come back and I want to share it with you guys. One of my peeps, the teen or wild one likes hip-hop, r& b and other music so I listen to that too. This is be Fergie. Who I like...parts of me do.....
The name of the song is Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal)
La Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and Center, Clarity
Peace, Serenity[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cryThe path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
[Big Girls Don't Cry lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cryLike the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and UNO cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and Center, Clarity
Peace, Serenity[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cryLa Da Da Da Da Da
I don't know who or whom she wrote it for but it really hit home with us. I played it over and over and it soothed us and helped us get strong and get over some things and be able to move a little out of the dark. Or as the song says be Big Girl or an adult. I had a good day until one of the little ones crashed. But I realize now as I go each day, that I can be around but the little ones will take longer cuz they use emotions and feelings to make themselves known. And that is hard. Maybe it is cause they are too young to talk. Maybe they are so little they don't have words. Maybe that is why they can't talk. They only can feel sad, hurt, angry, etc. That is what I think. And I have good 1/2 days, and that is ok. I must deal with each of them cuz they are me too. Sometimes I let wild one out now to have fun, but must be careful cuz she could get us in lots of trouble but she is fun. She finds great music too.
Thanks all for the support and kind words. Real Me, Llurpsie, I need hugs( I always want one when I read your name online), Muffled,Star, ClearSkies, TherapyGirl, and Dinah. It really meant alot to me.
I hope you enjoy my song***. I have more if anyone interested. rk
I think music is great therapy until I see my T. It will 2 weeks until I go so this is how I am making it. Love to all, and thanks
rk****The song was written and performed by Fergie on her Dutchess album. Great album by the way very theraputic, I just like to call it mine now because it means so much.
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