Posted by B2chica on November 20, 2007, at 12:24:10
for those of you that knew...and those that didn't. i'm back from the hospital.
it just skyrocketted downward sooo fast with that last week. i caught myself frantically looking on postsecret looking for the suicide hotline...and couldnt' find it...i realized wtf was i doing. and called my T. and my DH.
i went in wed night and got out sat evening...80% better.
still not 100%. that's why i'm still not ready to come back yet. i think i'm still too easily triggered. so i just need to stay safe.
i can't even listed to the same music i was listening to before...just because it triggers some thoughts...i wont get into things now but for MANY reasons on MANY levels it was the Best decision i made. for myself, meds, family, DH, therapy, etc...and now i have a MUCH better repor(sp?) with my pdoc. MUCH better. i understand him AND he now is Fully aware of my DD and my 'parts' or at least Teen. cuz she started to come out in the hospital and the nurses thought i was getting manic and i told him i was triggered when talking to (male T) there and teen started to come out...he got it.
any way...i'm back.
and gonna stay with lots a meds till after the holidays then try to taper off (with doc's approval of course) later.i was thinking of you all though. i do miss you terribly.
you are all in my thoughts and prayers.
i should probably be showing my mug around in a few weeks.Best luck to us all this Thanksgiving!
B2c.
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