Posted by happyflower on November 17, 2007, at 14:19:07
It makes me feel like you babblers really care about me, well at a lot of you anyway, some don't like me and want me to eat sh*t, but that is okay, not everyone can like you.
But for the ones who truly care, I hope to be there for you too. In fact I am thinking I would like to exchange emails and have a private group, it is getting harder to feel safe here, but I don't want to lose any of my friends, but perhaps a smaller group would be nice, one that is off the public boards and search engines.Maybe limit the members too. Then it could be more private, and I would even be more inclined to be more personal about therapy and daily struggles. What do you think? Babble me if you are interested, or I might babble you if you have it turned on. Or if you know where would be a good place, yahoo egroups?IT meant so much to me, words cannot express how moved I am am at such an outpouring of love and support. Times like these you really learn who your real friends are. Even though I haven't met you in person, I still feel close to you as a friend and that feels so comforting. Someday I hope we can all meet.
I have received lots of caring babblemails, that I haven't had a change to even respond to, I still plan to doing that. Please give me some time.
The funeral I was okay, until the speeches and my other stepdaughter wrote a song to sing. That brought most of us to tears. One touching thing they did at the grave site, was they let each parent let a dove go. That was really beautiful while my other stepdaughter sang, Somewhere Over the Rainbow.
Glad to be home now, I am feeling better from my kidney infection, I think the new antibodics are working.But I am feeling a little angry today too. Some things are annoying me right now. I have truely learned a lesson about people today. I can't go into details, but you know some people are just mean, unforgiving, and I just care to know them. The world has wonderful caring people, and it just isn't worth getting upset over those few who are self serving. Losing an infant has to be one of the toughest thing for anyone to endure, and today I saw what real caring is.
But sometimes there are just *ssh*l*s in this world, but I am not going to let them take me down. I have had enough sh*t in my life, and those who don't accept me can bite a big one especially my husbands ex wife. I think I need a nap now. I am taking Thanksgiving off this year, I am not up to cooking for 30 people. Thanks again!
With love your friend,
Happyflower
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