Posted by B2chica on November 5, 2007, at 11:06:11
i just wanted to watch a movie this weekend and i like adam sandler so i decided to rent Reign over Me.
it was about a guy (sandler) who lost his family in 911 and meets an old college roommate blah blah.**spoiler alert**
so i rented it and actually was suprised. kinda triggering. brought back lots of fears.
he was so depressed that he chose to forget everything and became almost a hermit from his depression/grief. then as he supposed to be getting help from pdoc he gets worse (as do we all), and he tries to off himself. but he used the exact method that i've dreamed of many...MANY times. he held an (unloaded) gun and hoped cops would shoot him...they didn't. he got arrested and almost committed. the scenes in the psych ward, brought back all the memories of the crisis center i went to. it was one step away from the state "institue". and i was almost committed unvoluntarily. i can't even tell you how close it was...
it reminded me that if i 'try S. again and fail. that i will most likely be committed to that state facility.
if i wasn't crazy before...i would be.
and i WOULD die in there.i'm almost to scared to even keep talking about being suicidal to my T OR pdoc (whom i see tomorrow).
so i guess my question is. how much suicide talk can you have before people finally say (its time to stop 'dealing' with her and just lock her away where she belongs')...
poster:B2chica
thread:793413
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