Posted by Dinah on November 2, 2007, at 16:50:14
In reply to Re: My apologies to my therapist, posted by DAisym on November 2, 2007, at 14:05:00
You're right. :) He really is accepting of that sort of thing. And he has explicitly said that he thinks it's a good thing for me to be able to vent here, so I'm guessing he realizes "venting" isn't usually positive in nature.
I feel so clingy and needy for him today. Part of the whole anxiety thing I guess.
It was an interesting session today. I shared my fears and my feeling clingy. I told him (not for the first time I'm sure - he's a great listener because he forgets a lot) about how I used to give myself points if I got him to drawl or laugh. And how I forgot something in my car once, so rode up in the elevator with his clients who were leaving and who were talking about him.
And I told him about my visualizing therapy right now as myself as a kitten butting against his hand for a neck scritch. I asked what he thought of that, but he made me tell my own interpretations first. I told him I thought of it as my feeling affectionate and asking for something from him, and with further prodding guessed that the "something" was likely teasing or affection and that I might be looking to him as I used to look to my father. He agreed with that, and liked the playfulness that he image brought to mind for him. But he also asked if I thought it meant I was marking him the way cats do with the scent glands near their ears and on their butts. At my indignant glance, he added laughingly that he realized my imagery did not involve my rubbing my butt against him. :D I don't really think I had possessiveness in mind though.
All in all it was an embarassing, but warm and companionable, session. And he took everything very well. With his customary aplomb and good humor.
And here I am overdisclosing again. I'll probably end up getting scared by this now.
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