Posted by Dory on October 27, 2007, at 18:16:42
In reply to Re: it happened, posted by Dory on October 27, 2007, at 14:02:47
i'm just so afraid now. My whole world is changing. Going to lose so much... i don't care about the stuff around me, i care about losing my stability.. my sanity.. my little home i made for myself.. my T. Oh god.. i am so afraid of losing my T
i'm sorry about the rant.. i'm sorry.. i'm just a mess
so what do i do to help myself? when i am afraid of losing all that matters to me? i spend a bunch of money. Money i can't afford. :( what the hell is the matter with me? i have no way to make a living so i blow the little money i do have
what do i do when i am feeling unattractive? i eat. emotional eating. i feel fat.. even though i fit in regular sizes again.. i feel like i am 300lbs
you guys are very kind.. i appreciate it. i am so scared.
i feel sick.. all i have had to eat is junk.. i never eat junk.. i can't seem to stop doing everything wrong... everything i can do to hurt myself i am doing... is this any better than SI?
what do i do? how do i survive without destroying what i have? i don't want to fall into dangerous behaviours like i did last winter.. the SI, the dangerous places, dangerous people, falling down drunk on the street, not knowing what i have done the night before...
wtf is wrong with me?
poster:Dory
thread:791323
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20071022/msgs/791833.html