Posted by rskontos on October 24, 2007, at 12:41:06
In reply to Re: Resolve did not last long.....panic attack today:( » rskontos, posted by RealMe on October 23, 2007, at 22:06:16
No realme, it doesn't sound sick. I understand. I can still dissociate some just once the panic attacks start I can't always. I realized now that is how I kept the attacks from happening was dissocaition. No I understand the sex thing perfectly. IN fact my T and I was discussing sex since my mom was raped and her allowing my grandfather to shape my sisters and my views on sex I was telling her how we were affected by his distorted words to us on sex. I always wondered where my weird views on sex came from and the knowledge my aunt gave me enlighted me. I always tried to be close to people through it but of course that doesn't work so I shut them down and they of course didn't understand it. I could always allow my body to be used but remain aloof to the process. I could send them on their merry way too and not care. I could dissociate from the whole thing. I never knew why I did it only that I did. I did talk about this some to my T and she understood it. I too dissociated while I talked about it to some degree to get through it out. I don't know how else right now to tell her some things. We can't help the way we were treated that led us to feel this way about something that should be natural to us but isn't because of the way we experienced life as a child so don't be embarrassed over something we did not create. Thanks for your words they mean alot to me. rk
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