Posted by Dinah on October 24, 2007, at 9:16:48
Does anyone ever twist what their therapist says and does into something ugly even when they know it isn't true?
I do, not infrequently.
My therapist came back yesterday, and it was ok tho I'd largely forgotten who he was. The session was quite light. Both because I felt distant and because I'm immensely busy right now and don't have time to fall apart. I did anyway. Came home and slept for hours.
But last night my mind kept replaying a fun house mirror version of what he said. There were no disparaging words accompanying it this time. Often there are. Just these intrusive and twisted versions of incredibly detailed memories. I *know* things didn't happen that way. I *know* it. Yet it took forever to fall asleep.
Maybe I'm trying to take advantage of the distance to increase the distance and cut down on or eliminate therapy.
I wish I knew what the right thing to do is.
poster:Dinah
thread:791069
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