Posted by Wittgenstein on October 14, 2007, at 15:51:22
I've been having a very hard time of things the last week. Horrible sadness - despair, hopelessness, pain, emptiness, suicidal thoughts and dreams. I spend hours curled up in bed. I feel so detached :(
I like babble - it has brought me a lot since I came across the site and started posting but still I find it impossible to be involved when I most need the help. I just retreat inside myself - it's pathetic. I wish I could be more active here like many of you are - that I could stick around so that others could know me, but before I know it I'm back down again in the depths and isolate myself.
I came on the other day with the aim of posting - bottled out - instead settling for a less emotive post about Bob's choice of cautioning one poster over another - I hated it when someone is treated unfair. I want to post at times when I'm really hurting but I don't know how to find the words. Big mess. I suppose this is a start.
I'm sorry for this stupid post. I'm sure most of you are thinking "who the hell is this person anyway - who does she think she is coming on here, posting a few times, and then disappearing again?" - the fact is the people who post here mean a lot to me and when I'm not posting for what seems like ages, I still read your posts and think about you.
Witti
poster:Wittgenstein
thread:789196
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