Posted by Dory on October 5, 2007, at 16:58:05
In reply to Feeling closer to my T, posted by Wittgenstein on October 5, 2007, at 7:53:30
Witty, i just want to wrap you up in a blanket and hug you. i am so happy for you and so very proud of you. You were tentative about starting therapy, and i was afraid you would not hold on through the initial portion.. until you got connected with your T. It is like a spell sometimes, but it can help you heal. It will have hard times, disconnected times, but the solid relationship you are building now will see you through. This is such a beautiful thing to have shared.
> Last week I felt so held back - I left both sessions frustrated at how unable I was to speak freely.
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> Monday's session felt just like the session before - difficult, long pauses, trying to make myself say what I thought but failing miserably.
> I left the session feeling so vulnerable. I pretty much straight away sank into an intense feeling of despair - grief/mourning. As the week went on, I sank lower - felt like I needed to cry and cry but I couldn't.good god.. i think we had the same sessions. i felt so alone, and like i was grieving. i called my T and told him i felt so hopeless and couldn't explain why.
((((witty)))) )))))bad sessions((((
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> He said he took great pride and pleasure in being so important to me and insisted that our relationship was the most important aspect of the therapy.It *is* the most important thing.. i believe that too. It is such a beautiful statement.. that he takes pride and pleasure in being so important to you.. it makes me want to cry, but a happy cry... this is where i want to hug you. :o)
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>I muttered that "I guess you are just serving as an object of my transference" and he quickly countered that with "no, I am a person, of course there are boundaries and professional objectivity but I am still me, I am still here as a person and you are responding to me, not an object, as I am responding to you".this is such good reasoning on his part... i had never thought of it that way before either. i have been forelorn knowing that my T is the "object of my transference" as you say.
> Ok... sorry this was so long - I just wanted to share.
Thank you for sharing this. It's comforting to hear, both for my own journey, but also for yours.
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