Posted by Happyflower3 on September 23, 2007, at 9:35:22
I was having a bad night with dreams and all but when I checked my email, I saw one from one of the new professors at the school. He wants to meet with me to discuss his research stuff ! The chair of the department recommended me to him. This guy is very well known in his field, and I am excited to be able to work with him. Getting published under his name is pretty cool for an undergrad and get paid! Plus he wants to talk about my goals for graduate school! I am kinda nervous to talk to him though. But if he is a T, he should understand, right? lol oh my goodness.
It is funny we are an extension of a major university, but our professors are so awesome here. One is a expert on sucide and depression and was even on Oprah! I will have a chance to work for him too! So awesome!
But I am flattered and worried about the resonsiblity of it all and with all the recent stuff too. I was never pushed as a student, and now I have profs from every angle pushing me, because they see "potential" or they want me to be a TA for them too even in subjects I am not majoring in. Well I feel
nervous that I will let them down. I can't call this parental transference because my parents never did this, but it feels kinda like this. The hardest one is my jazz band director. I am like why me?I need my T so much, a week seems like such a long time. I am glad I see him tomorrow. It is hard to decide what to talk about, the recent stuff, or the past stuff. It is all connected but EMDR takes most of a session, and I have other stuff I need to talk about. So I am not sure what to do.
I feel I am capable of most of this stuff, but at the same time I am scared at their confidence in me. I don't want to let them down. auuuggghh! I feel like climbing into a hole and staying there.
poster:Happyflower3
thread:784617
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