Posted by muffled on September 21, 2007, at 12:44:17
and she left me one!
She kinda screwed it up, but thats my fault cuz I mumbled when I left the message for my T to lv a message.
I wanted her NOT to say my name in the message, cuz then it could be more to my inside kid. So initially it was a dissapointment, but now its good.
Cuz mostly, well theres a few good things bout it in parts.
But she talks slow, and is encouraging, and so its OK.
I like best that she talks slow. I like that its long, and she was obvo trying really hard to have a nice message for me.
She says some nice things which is hard for me to hear. But its getting easier.
I am so sleep deprived, and have arrived at that state where its actually kinda fun. I feel stoned.
I gonna try sleep meds I guess, but they mess with my sleep cycles and don't actually give me a good nights sleep.
So I going to T next Tues, and then she gone 2 wks.
She says I doing way better at ID emotions and sharing them w/her (in writing).
So I guess she's got a point.
I've gone from chronic dissociating, perpetually confused, self injuring, very risky behaviors, no clue of what emotions I was having, thinking I was evil, thinking I had evil inside and that I was 'tainted', etc etc to much calmer, RARELY self injure, MUCH less dissociating, understand whats happening inside me WAY more, not risky behaviors much, less confused, I know I not evil, and all that weird scary evil that was inside were just my emotions.
So while I still struggle terribly AT TIMES, I am doing much better on the whole.
So thats good.
Good T.
M
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