Posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on September 18, 2007, at 18:26:55
In reply to I am anxious, and I need my T's help, posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on September 18, 2007, at 10:21:51
I don't believe I have low selfesteem, but I don't have high self esteem, so it there a mid?
Today I went in to see my writing teacher, as she suggested for all her students. Well I finished my 1st draft, and I wanted to see what I could do to make it better. As she read it, started to make some small sugestions. Then she said, you know I am going to harder on your paper than normal, because you write very well. She said if you were to have turned this in as a final draft, you would have received a very good grade. I thinking, really?. So she said it is her job to push me to do my best work, even if my starting work in the class is excellent already. She said she likes how I use words, and put my sentences together, and the gift of writing to really convey emotions and feelings into a reader. I was shocked, really.
I know I am not a bad writer, but I didn't think I was that good either. I have been told I was good, but I always wondered if there were alternative motives in saying that. Trust issues, eh?
I love writing creative writing, but essays and research papers intimidate me, so many rules to follow. I told her this, and she said I have nothing to worry about.
So in the past 2 days, I have someone who wants to feature me on a solo, and then someone tell me I am a gifted writer. I really am surprised by all of this.
I guess it would make a good topic in therapy. While growing up, I didn't have someone to push me to do my best, if I didn't do it myself or a teacher encouraged it, I just did what I could to get by with a C.I always knew I could do better, but because of my mother's jelously, I didn't want he to think I was trying to be a smart *ss, that always got me in trouble because she had to "bring me down" to a lower level than her. It was always better if I just stayed at that lower level, then have her do it.
I guessI am not used to excelling, and having others see it, it is just weird to me.
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