Posted by muffled on September 17, 2007, at 15:37:40
In reply to feelings of lost, posted by B2chica on September 17, 2007, at 13:49:55
B2C hope you feeling better.
From your post below it sounds like you do some.
I hate anxiety.
Ya, proly, if you gonna work thru some sh*t in T, if meds have worked for you before, maybe try again.
I REALLY hope my post didn't trigger you :-(
I think sometimes I write stuff I shouldn't, but I honestly want an answer.
I wouldn't worry too much bout 'getting ahead' in T.
T is just T. You do what you need to do at the time to make it thru the week. If things are calm, then mebbe you can dig in. I think T is a teaching thing even when it seemas to be perpetual 'crisis control'. It all builds learning and trust. Teaches us emotional control. Teaches us STUFF. all kinds a stuff we didn't learn before.
As to why we got to take so much sh*t?
Well, I dunno.
Lifes just not fair.
I wonder about the moms in africa wondering who should get the bowl of food, them so they can nurse the baby? or the two yr old with the big eyes that doesn't even cry anymore....or mebbe the older son....who found the food....who?
I don't understand all this sh*t I DON'T.
But I cling to moments of joy.
The times my head is attached, and I feel real, and I have a special moment with one of my kids, and my heart is singing, and there is water of joy in my eyes, the sun shines warm, my skin is clean, my children touch me, and its OK.
Moments.
I guess its about moments....
Special special moments.
And helping others.
I love helping others.
Makes me feel useful.
Makes me feel good.
Damn,
I hope this damn post isn't triggering.
Take care B2.
M
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