Posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on September 17, 2007, at 11:15:54
I told him right away that I didn't feel up to the tramuma work, because I have a cold, and I would rather not go deep. Well he said that is okay, but sometimes he will push me, if he feels I am being resistant,(who me? lol). But he said he believes me today I am just not up to it.
I told him about the prozac and how it seems to be working. He said I am not even in the full effect phase even, so it will be another couple of weeks before I feel the full effect. I said well then I will be feeling so much happiness, he won't know what do do with me. LOL
I shared with him the poem I wrote a couple of years ago after my first EMDR, Scared To Feel the Pain. He said if he read this poem 15 years ago, he would feel very depressed because he would wonder what can I do for this poor women? But he says with EMDR, he feels , he can really help me, and he is happy there is a tool available. He also told me I have a gift of writing, and getting my feelings across, in such prominant and touching ways. That felt good.
We talked more my writing class, on how I am writing about the fairy tale Snow White, on how in the orginal versions of the story the abuse was commited by the mother, not the stepmother or queen. That sociaety changed, and it can't accept the fact the mothers do abuse, in fact most childabuse is commited by mothers. We talked about Bruno Betteliheim and his Freudian ideas of how Snow White just projected her feelings about her mother onto her, and in fact the abuse was in her imagination. We talked about how this Fruedian idea prevented children from being believed if they ever told. Some still believe children are making abuse up in their imagination.
We talked a lot about disfunctional families and how it seems all families are disfunctional in way or another. We talked about we don't know where the line is for disfunction, but there is no such perfect parents or families.
He talked about his (all 6 kids), I told him he WAS crazy to have that many. He said it wasn't him, it was his wife, lol, he said after the 4th one, he was cussing at the Pope! lol It was really funny.He talked about how his wife who was a stay at home mom did a lot of the raising of his children, while he was in the office.He said childabuse from a mother is even more tragic, becase I didn't get what most kids even need, and instead I was perpetrated by someone who should love me the most.
We talked about the science fair project I did in school that was the same idea as my old T's master thesis in grad school. He was impressed that I had that much personal insentive, without any parental guidence.
So my session was cool, we both learned about each other, and it was neat. He wants to do start the trauma work next week. Ihope I feel better by then. I just love my new T, he is so warm and fuzzy and I know that sounds funny, but he is like a big teddy bear (even though he is skinny) lol But his presence is just so accepting and comfortable.
I am going out for lunch for my 14 anniversary today with my kids, that is cool, at least it isn't a date. Then I have jazz band rehearsal tonight. I think I need a nap! lol This cold is kicking my butt.
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