Posted by RealMe on September 2, 2007, at 22:42:47
In reply to Re: Magic Moment - very long + Dasiy » RealMe, posted by annierose on September 2, 2007, at 11:54:12
Thanks so much for your post. I hope I can lie on the couch sooner rather than later. Right now it was a big step for me to even sit closer to him, and he acknowledged this. The very idea of being that close to him without being able to see him really scares me. When I was in my teens and after all sorts of csa which continued, my older brother became schizophrenic and violent, and I would go to bed at night not sure I wouldn't be killed in my sleep. He almost killed me on more than one occasion and my mother too. No father in the home. So, to have my head so close to him is very threatening. I know in my head he won't kill me, but I have to get used to sitting closer first.
I only go twice per week due to a number of factors. He would like me to come three times per week, but his schedule is full, and I just don't know if I want that much intensity right now anyway. So we settled on twice per week for a year. Then see what we might do. Thanks, though. I really appreciate your post.
RealMe
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