Posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on August 29, 2007, at 21:08:11
I mostly talked about my old T and our relationship and what I think went wrong. I told him EVERYTHING , from the mutual attraction to his flirting to his sexual comments, to how I came to not trust him as a therpist and how because of the loose boundries, I couldn't work with him any longer.
It a little frusterating that he is keeping his comments reserved because of his professional realationship he has with my old T. He tells me he is doing this, I not sure if I understand exactly why he can't tell me all that he thinks about it. He did say I made the right decision, but T's are human too, and he didn't support what my T did, but that was all he wanted to say about it. He even told me how he got attracted to a client once, so he understood how that feels. We talked about countertransference too.
He believes that this experience will make me a better T, that all clouds have a silver lining and he thinks I have learned a lot from this.
Well I said I wasn't ready to learn this much yet, I was only an undergrad, couldn't I learn something not so personal and tragic. LOL
So I talked about how I cut back my sessions in school, and he thought that was a good idea, because we are going to be going through some tramatic work. And he wants to start next session with my past and do EMDR.
He said tradional desensization you start from the mild tramatic stuff to the worse, but with EMDR you do it *ss backwards compaired to that, you start with the juggler vein. Yikes! But I believe I will be okay with him.
I have no T next week due to the holiday and he already had 3 on his waiting list, so I am going with the next Monday. I made sure to schedule for the entire month.
Some great things happened for me tonight. I got to play in the philharmonic for the first time since being in it for over a year! Plus I am in the Jazz Ensemble too, plus the brass choir, and group guitar lessons. Geeze, it seems like I am more of a music major. LOL But I am soo happy.
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