Posted by meeple on August 23, 2007, at 6:12:23
In reply to my therapist, posted by meeple on August 23, 2007, at 5:33:11
only it is getting better now
it is
It Is
IT IS.
moments where his face drips black
moments where his tone is tainted with malevolence
moments
moments in minutes
moments in an hour
moments in a week
or two
or three
moments in months
and gradually,
creepingly,
it is getting better
i'm healing
i am
I/AMbalance is starting to come through
balance in life
balance in work
balance in socialisation
i have my weaknesses to be sure
here being one
but i've met someone
i've met someone
someone who makes me want to be well
someone who makes me be well
soothing
encouraging
yet strangely removed
strangely removed from all my sh*t
in a kind and compassionate way.and sometimes his face drips black
and sometimes his tone is tinged
but hes fairly solid.
and sometimes i see his weakness
his brooding
his depression
his removal from me
his removal from life
and i see that i could work.
i could work at making things work.
'cause there is a tiny spark in me
that responds to his basic kindness
his basic acceptance of me
and i think there is a seed of love in me
to help me want to work through the hard times.does he feel the same way?
maybe
maaaaaaaaaaaaaybeeeeeeeeeeeee
.
i don't know if he will keep feeling that
but i think i've found it
and if it doesn't work out i'll be sad
so sadbut...
maybe it is possible for me after all.keep moving forward.
life smacks you in the face sometimes
but there is little to be done but to keep moving forward
and remembering to smile in the sun.
poster:meeple
thread:777970
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