Posted by JoniS on August 19, 2007, at 19:10:51
I know it's totally unrealistic to expect any kind of relationship besides a professional theraputic one from my T, but I continue to long for something. Maybe it's to hear from him that he cares very much about me, I don't know if that would fill the hole or not. [he did tell me several months ago that he cares deeply and profoundly for me - do I need to hear it agaoin?]All I know is that I feel extremely lonely for him. I've read the self help books, I am grateful for the boundaries and the professonalism that he has, but I still want something ...
Maybe I need to read some of the old books I read a few years ago when I was recovering from my H's affairs. - About how people think the grass is greener with someone else, but IRL it really isn't. What will make me stop thinking my T is Mr Wonderful, and that he would never want to be with someone like me? I've even wondered if quitting t would help me get beyond this.
I know that a lot of people work through the loving feelings they have for their T, but I don't understand why it's staying with me for so long. I have talked about it with mine, but still the feelings remain. What is it that I want and how can I get it satisfied in a healthy way? I really wish I knew.
poster:JoniS
thread:777153
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