Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 12, 2007, at 8:18:32
In reply to Re: I'm here... legs and all » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by muffled on August 11, 2007, at 23:15:28
Muffeldy!!!
How special to be graced by your presence. I know the feeling of wearing clothes that say "eff you get away from me" or "don't notice me, I'm a mere lump upon this earth"I think everyone has clothes like that. Lately (summertime?) I've been daring to wear more revealing clothing. The other factor is that I no longer live in the big city, so I don't feel as vulnerable to snide comments on the bus/street about my appearance. That used to happen a lot in Chicago. Not in a bad way. Just in a way that made me feel kind of mildly objectified and slightly smutty.
I thought it was brave of me to bring it up too. Especially with male T. I think it was motivated by trying to "nip it in the bud". Try to get this body-image thing under control before I start to completely obsess about the stringiness of my arms and the protrudingness of my hip bones. (don't worry, I'm far from THAT!! lol.
A delicate balance between wanting to appear nicely dressed to make a good impression to others and to make my husband appreciate me | trying not to solicit ANY attention from men or women about the way I look.
T's right though. people look. There's no getting around that. I cannot ever prevent people from looking.
This is going to be an issue for the rest of my life. I'm just going off of my previous experience as a skinny girl (which lasted exactly 2 years in college) and I got a LOT of attention from peers and strangers alike about my weight loss and in-shape-ness. I felt so ashamed, like they thought I was a superficial stupid college girl. Actually it was probably a mixture of envy, jealousy, admiration, appreciation of my particular aesthetic etc.
Everyone's got their own body type preference. I cannot deny that. I don't know what my body type preference is, other than it includes some muscle tone and a flattish stomach. Fingernails that are neat and clean and not too many zits on my face. Is that so much to ask?
-Ll
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