Posted by slugdoo on August 11, 2007, at 13:09:51
I came into the gym and by the coffee area where there are tables and chairs for members to have snacks,free coffee and socialize, there are a group of old guys(60- 70+) I talk to during the week, and they waved me over, so I talked to them. I enjoy them they are so wonderful and I have learned SO much from them.
Well anyways I am there talking and my T comes out from the hallway where the locker rooms are, I sort of had my back to him, but I did see him. He kinda had on that big smile that I am not sure if it is genuine or not. But I know he saw me, but I looked away really quick, luckly I was in the middle of talking.
But I lucked out because before he passed me to go our the door,his good friend, my friend too, got off his chair and went up to him. And I heard him say something like to my T like, "I heard what happened", etc. I didn't hear anything else or wanted to , I was SO uncomfortable. But now I am wondering "what happened", maybe that is why he was so tense and yelled at me.
Well I left the guys and went to the locker room and started to cry. Luckely there nobody really saw me. So well I can at least go exercise because I know my T is leaving. So I come out of the locker room and he is still talking with his back torwards me , so he didn't see me go into the workout area.
Well I am doing my weights and I just keep tearin g up , and this old guy instructor that I know, who I like a lot (he thinks he is my dad), saw I was emotional and tried to make me laugh to cheer me up. It did help, it feels like somebody cares even if he doesn't know what is up.
Well I was done with the weights, and I am ready to go home, and my T friend comes into the workout area, and whe talked for 1 1/2 hours!!! It was a good distraction for me. He is so interesting with his family history and stuff, he also is a prof. at my school, so it is fun to talk about litature, politics and stuff. I figured out his age today, and he must be 69. LOL
I really like this guy and his wife, we go to yoga class together, and I enjoy both of them. But one problem is that they are friends with my T and his wife. That makes it hard. What is funny is my T is only 52, and one of his best friends is much older too. Now this friend doesn't know about my T and me so that makes it even kind weirder. Now I keep thinking if my T didn't tell me that they are friends, I wouldn't of known, and his hame doesn't come up at all. Now my T's wife did once.
Well sorry this is getting so long. But I saw him, he had on flip flops which was weird. But it was so awkward, and we didn't make eye contact so that is still in the air. I am not sure I can look at him without crying or if I happen to be mad at him , I might give him a bad look. I still feel so hurt, I am not sure if he smiles at me if it will help or make it worse. auugghh! It makes me so sad.
poster:slugdoo
thread:775487
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