Posted by OzLand on August 9, 2007, at 19:52:43
In reply to Connecting the unconscious dots - long, posted by DAisym on August 9, 2007, at 2:21:40
This is all so fantastic, DAisym. I know it has been painful, but I can tell how hard you have worked on trust and the issues, etc. This is just great making the link with your therapist and father. I am saying three cheers!!
Do I ever know what you are going through. Am feeling the anxiety I have been having for seveal days now. Like you I want to figure things out myself before going to therapy. Wednesday I blurted something out I thought I would never be able to say outloud, and then I said I don't understand. He said it is understandable and we will get there. I know it has to do with the damn csa.
Sometimes I want to rush too, but this is the worst thing we could do to ourselves as then the work is not really done as it should be. I am glad you have a therapist who knows this. I am so sorry about the nightmares, though. I have not been remembering any dreams. I think it is a blessing for now.
And feeling needy; do I EVER know what you mean. This is one thing I know my therapist worries about, that I have not had people there in my life who can be emotionally supportive. I don't want to need him as what if he says go away; I am tired of you. This is not based in reality, I know, but my mother was like that; if I needed her she distanced; if she needed me, she smothered me. AGGH!! Poor mom, though, she died a horrible death, and so I feel guilty saying anything negative about her. We had a better relationship in the last 20 years of her life.
I just have to say again, you made my day with your hard work and insights. Most definitely you deserve the medal of honor for the day, week, and maybe for weeks to come. YEs??
OzLand
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