Posted by Racer on August 2, 2007, at 13:53:56
In reply to Re: Is this depression? Or what? » Racer, posted by OzLand on August 2, 2007, at 0:43:22
Well, I'm going to respond in one post, because I don't much have the energy or motivation to manage individual responses.
Thank you all, though.
ClearSkies:
> I've been thinking of buying a cattle prod or taser and asking random strangers to give me a poke now and then. It sounds kinky, but really, I just want someone, anyone, to tell me to get my stuff in gear and get on with it. Whatever it is.
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> Does this sound like what you have?
>Nope. I don't want to have anyone close enough to me for that to work. And I don't much care if any of these things gets done. I plod along with the things I think I might otherwise want done, or the things I think I might enjoy, but it doesn't seem as though there's any point, really. So, not just amotivation, I guess...
And Daisy:
> One of the ways to figure out if it is physical is to note how you feel at different times of the day (or night). Do you wake up OK for a few minutes and then remember your life and feel bent over again? Do you feel different a few hours after taking your medications? Do you feel better if you eat (are you eating?)? If so, does eating protein help? Or sugar?
>Very good advice. No, not waking up OK -- waking up, and dreading having to get out of bed. Also dreading getting into bed -- in fact, I should recognize this pattern by now: I'm avoiding going to bed. That's often a sign of depression for me: I'll end up staying up most of the night, a sort of aversion to going upstairs to bed. In fact, when it gets really bad, I'll sleep on the sofa to avoid bed.
The only thing I really notice about my meds is the Concerta -- and even that's more subtle than the IR Ritalin. I still feel the need for a nap, and usually sleep just fine when I do. And sleeping at night is kinda wonky -- I wake up a lot, but go straight back to sleep. I haven't gotten to the point, yet, of waking up at 5 and just lying there, but I suspect I'd better do something to avoid that, since I suspect it's coming.
And eating? I'm having a hell of a time because of my weight right now. And can't think of anything I want to eat, but can't avoid eating, either. Grrr
I'd better get out my sewing machine. I still need to finish that dress, so that I can buy shoes to go with it. You'll still help?
xoxo
And Antigua? Thank you. That meant a lot to me.
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