Posted by muffled on July 28, 2007, at 22:37:27
In reply to Re: My T called :-) » muffled, posted by LadyBug on July 27, 2007, at 17:21:18
Well, really, hmmmm, well.
She DID say she missed me :-) But I was just about freaking out at the time feeling awkward. It was hard to hear that she missed me. And then I said I not very good at talking cuz she said how have I been and what I been doing etc. So she said, OK then *I* will talk ! ROFL!!! It was so funny the way she said it. But anyways, she said she cared bout me (though to be honest I TOTALLY cannot 'get' THAT at all), and she said she was pretty sure I cared bout her (which I do).
I guess I kinda just bolted on her. She was just trying to stretch out sessions, but in my mind I turned that into, the terrible T word(termination), so I just didn't go back. So she says she would still like to meet w/me again to have some 'closure', and talk about some stuff.
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Can you imagine how AWKWARD that would be?????????????
I don't do emotions.
I don't do goodbye. Though she says its not necc goodbye, that I can still see her and she would like to see me (but I just can't possibly beleive this is a true thing).
But STILL. Ugh.
She's cutting back on her T work too. Only 2 days/wk. The rest of the time she out of town to be with her hubby who is working away.
So of course I said (or mumbled) away on the phone that I was OK.
But I'm not.
So I sent her a goofy fax where I owned up that I not so fine, but that I have learned lots and am managing myself, cuz I don't think I'll ever be perfectly well, but I need to learn to take care of myself in the way that I am.
I WROTE that I missed her too(in a roundabout way).
So i leave next Wed, she gonna be in her office Tues....
Sigh.
T
Termination.
It all sucks.
But I'm taking my zoloft...
Thanks for caring guys and putting up w/my long winded posts.
muffled
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