Posted by muffled on July 27, 2007, at 16:53:10
In reply to How T went today » Phillipa, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 27, 2007, at 15:49:16
> Talked about husband's reaction. T suggested that we bring him in for a few sessions. (kicking and screaming, I'm sure)
**Aaaaccck. Maybe he could talk to hubby w/o you there in the room????
> Then to my lack of feelings**I know your tired, but what did he say bout that?
> then to cutting. i told him the how what where why. he was good about it. not judgemental. no stupid puppydog pity eyes either. I can't stand it when people do that.
**well I guess if he has had some experience he's bound to have come across SI before. Glad he responded well.
> but... I dissociated major time. started staring at this one spot on the carpet and drifted away. and pulled myself back again and couldn't remember what we were talking about...**hey thats my fav way, i just stare at carpet and then everything starts to fade..
> then I told this story about this horrible thing that happened to me once, and i was totally like a robot saying it. and drifted off too. looking down at myself in the office. heard myself saying it. but not feeling it at all.**I'm glad you can remember some stuff from your appt, I would miss entire appointments, and thats rather disconcerting, plus it feels wasteful...
> told t i was not really feeling anything right now. that i was off in la la land.
>
> he said the nicest thing "It's okay if you couldn't feel it, because I could"**WOW! DOUBLE WOW! WHAT a WAY cool thing to say! ((T))
> sigh... at least one of us in the room has emotions.
>exhausted.
**Yeah, dunno what it is bout dissociating, but it is exhausting...utterly.
Thanks for update and glad you went and that it went reasonably well.
Keep us in the loop.
Muffled
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