Posted by Dinah on July 10, 2007, at 18:39:15
In reply to Re: Comfy cozy » Dinah, posted by annierose on July 10, 2007, at 18:03:50
What is it with these long vacations?! I'm glad you're feeling up to the separation. I don't think I'm to that point in therapy yet. He's opening an office closer to where he lives, and I'm feeling a lot of abandonment over it, even though he'll keep his current office. I have the idea, right or not, that he would like to eventually have a thriving practice there so he doesn't have to drive so far. And while he told me he chose the secondary office with the ease of my getting there in mind, that still brings back lots of abandonment issues from when he moved.
I'm not sure that I felt so good about this session. In some ways it was nice, but in some ways it was frustrating. I feel like I've put up an emotional barrier sometime. I feel it with him, and I feel it with Babble even. Anywhere that I approach with my emotional side first. I don't like it. It makes my life feel choppy and disconnected.
I don't know how seriously he takes my feelings of frustration. He realizes that when I melt down, I need him again. But I'm looking for something between the meltdowns. He asked if my life seemed boring when I'm not in crisis. And I don't think that's it exactly. I like my life best when it's boring. I really do think that it's more to do with the fact that therapy is all about exploring one member of the duo, and I feel thoroughly explored and at a loss on what to talk about. It wouldn't be a problem at all if we could, indeed, sit together comfortably doing something else.
It sounds as if you're in a really good place in therapy, and in life? You deserve it. You've worked hard.
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