Posted by LadyBug on July 9, 2007, at 14:59:39
Great, I'm going through the hardest thing in my life, a divorce, and my T is out of the country.
I'm seriously depressed. Yesterday my husband said some really cruel things to me. I haven't moved out yet, things are still in process. My 16 year old daughter is going to be the death of me yet! Long story, but she doesn't seem to care if she makes good decisions or not, no matter what trouble she gets into.
Yesterday I was so down and feeling totally hopeless about my life, I just took off by myself for the afternoon. I would have called my T but she's not available. I won't call the T's that are taking her calls. NO way! I just want to die and be done with this crap of a life. I have nothing but sorrow, I'm so down I can't stand it. I don't get to see my T until July 26th. I know I just have to make it! But the pain of it all is more than I can handle. I go to the Dr. today for my medication refill. I don't want to up my dose, I've been on the same dose for so long and don't want to add to it.I know I can't and won't call a hot line, but yesterday if not for the thoughts of hurting my kids, I'd be a goner for sure. I hate my life so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No need to repond, don't waste the energy. I want to cry, but I can't I'm at work and I'm covering for the receptionist of a district office. How cheery can I pretend to be? You'd be amazed, but I'm tired of pretending..........
sick of life LadyBug
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