Posted by antigua3 on July 5, 2007, at 18:41:11
Had to change my name again, but that's not what I'm upset about.
I don't know who's giving me more grief--my T or my Pdoc. I am so upset with both of them right now I could.... what? I don't know.
I've been away visiting family (including my mother). this is the most difficult visit I make every year and both are aware of this.
so I get an email from my T who PROMISES to call me last Saturday or Sunday. This is on top of her failing me just a few weeks ago when it comes to calling me. I didn't ask her to call--she said she was going to, and didn't. So great, back to the not trusting part.
And my pdoc? the day before I left last week, I decided to be "honest" and fill him in on how badly I was really feelings (my post way up there). It was a terrible session; he couldn't follow me and it was very stressful. His approach has always been cold (I called him on that and yes, he admits it, it's his style) but he just really didn't get it at all.
By the end of it he asked if I shouldn’t be in the hospital, and I said no. He threatened to call my husband if I couldn't promise him I would be safe while I was gone. That sure says a lot about trust to me. I know safety comes first, but here I finally reached out and said some really tough things, and he turns on me.
So, now I'm home. I canceled my Pdoc appt for tomorrow (that was another promise I had to make). Besides all the trouble we're having, I simply can't afford it--he's very expensive.
And what do I do about my T? I just cannot believe she didn't call me, knowing what a terrible time this visit is for me (and it was absolutely awful, but I made it through )
So maybe it's just to h*ll with them.
antigua
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