Posted by Happyflower on June 22, 2007, at 19:39:58
In reply to Re: Thanks Muffy » Happyflower, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 22, 2007, at 16:02:57
Hi Llupsie,
I wish it was true that I don't have any danger. I still do, because she can show up at my doorstep again, armed and wicked, and kill me. She put a gun to my brothers head, so I don't think she would thing twice about doing it to me again. I still worry that she will try to abduct my kids or do something to my DH. She is a very scary person and as long as she is still living, I will still be scared. Last I heard she had thryoid cancer and had it removed. Only when she is dead will I be able to be free of her. Because it isn't just the past memories but the current threat of her harming me.
I have been posting more about this lately, I don't think I think about it more than I usually do. I think seeing and hearing stories remind me of it a lot, but all and all, I feel okay. I am not suffering from the effects of PTSD anymore, for well over 2 years now. I guess it is something that you can never truely forget. But the emotional intensity is low from the past memories, thanks to EMDR. But I am still scared of her and as long as she is living she will continue to haunt me.
BUt I am not staying at home, I am living my life, so things have improved since sexylegs saw me. I miss him, I haven't been at the gym lately because I have been gardening. But I see him in a week. Thanks Llurpsie for responding and caring.
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