Posted by DAisym on June 22, 2007, at 1:01:22
In reply to Daisy? did I miss a thread on how it went on the, posted by muffled on June 21, 2007, at 18:02:53
You didn't miss it -- I didn't write about it. Things have been kind of chaotic here on Babble.
I guess what I can say is that it wasn't any better or worse than I expected. But what I didn't expect was this aftermath of feelings. I held on for most of the week but today I lost it completely. I bounce between hating myself for not being able to stand up for myself better and being devastated by the truth all over again. I feel stupid for not being able to handle it all better and for not being able to just say "go away."
I cried in therapy and told my therapist I didn't expect this. He said he did and it was likely to last awhile but that we could get through it. But you know...I'm just so tired of getting through it. I feel defeated and alone. Again. or maybe still. I'm beginning to wonder if my life will always be this way. *sigh*
Anyway, thank you for asking. I'm sorry to have been so negative. It was very kind of you to even think about it and I'm touched.
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