Posted by wishingstar on June 21, 2007, at 15:08:55
In reply to Re: got an appt.. » wishingstar, posted by jammerlich on June 21, 2007, at 14:29:34
I did accept Monday. I said it'd be fine. I've never missed (without proper notice anyway) an appt so I think she trusts I'll show up. It was really a very pleasant conversation on the phone... she said shes sorry I'm having a hard time but otherwise it was very pleasant. I think she just doesnt care...... okay, I know she cares. But something. She just doesnt know what to do with me I guess. Whatever. Maybe she did sense it. Who knows.
I need someone to "sit with me" (even figuratively) so badly right now. I'm reached out SO many times and been shot down equally as much. Went into chat on another website and as soon as I said I'd had a rough day, the person decided they had to leave. I cant get anyone to return my phone calls. I'd have to force myself on someone to get them to listen to me right now and I just dont want to do that.
My boyfriend knows I had a rough day and may come over this evening. That means a lot to me. Unfortunately he isnt someone who really "gets it" on an emotional level, so I cant do a lot of talknig with him.. but his presence and caring helps. He's a wonderful person and I dont want to make it seem like I dont appreciate him. I just want someone to TALK to though.
I see a new T tomorrow. It'll be mostly interview, get-to-know-you type stuff but maybe itll be useful.
Tears are back. I hate this.
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