Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on June 13, 2007, at 15:41:48
In reply to Re: Having an open heart, posted by Honore on June 13, 2007, at 9:40:11
> You have an open heart, Llurpsie, even if you can't feel how open.
I'm not so good at feeling, so I'll take your word for it.
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> Hearts feel open and closed from time to time-- or they close like flowers at night, and open again when the sun shines again. Losing your home, and T, and place in school--however much they were irritants or sources of pain--makes one's heart shut up a little-- in a cabinet.
>I like that idea of a flower. sometimes it's winter and the flowers die back, but I suppose my heart is a perennial, and the buds come back each spring.
A while back T and I talked about how it's important to wrap my old issues in tissue paper, gently, so that they don't get creased, and then put them away for dissertation season, and then, when the time was right, I would know when to get them out of storage. Problem is- I ran out of closet space! or they're multiplying or having a party in my drawers or something!!
> But it isn't really so shut up-- it only seems to be. You said that your T said you had made amazing progress-- yet you didn't say that to yourself--or perhaps feel that. You felt more the troubles and anxieties, and traumas that you were recapturing and naming-- and trying to contain, with difficulty.Yes, it's hard to admit that I've made progress. Maybe it's true though. quieT says that I seem to know myself pretty well, and that is probably a recent development. (((((((((T)))))))))
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> The name Llurpsie almost means someone with an open heart to me. I admire that in you-- among other things-- but I understand how much it's hard to know about those things oneself.
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> And it's truly amazing that you're learning to drive-- along with having tea, and I hope chocolate (because we all know the unique properties of this hallocinogenic drug).
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> HonoreThanks Honore- your words mean lots. One thing I'm working on is accepting compliments and praise from someone I admire and respect. I'm gonna try and open up my heart a bit to let your words sink in
-Ll
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