Posted by peddidle on June 12, 2007, at 19:33:28
So I finally sent that email I mentioned a few weeks ago, about how my T said that if something happened, she would feel like she was blowing it, and how I know that I'm really frustrating because I hardly talk, but that realized that she is the first T that I've allowed myself to be completely honest with (at least, to the extent that I'm able to), etc.
Anyway, this is what she wrote back:
"Thanks for email. I have been thinking of you. I liked a lot about the email and appreciated it.
I really don't find you frustrating--I get the struggle and truly just want you to feel good. I like that you are able to express yourself better in writing--and I want us to work on helping you to express yourself with words too. I have to go --will write more later. Have a great day."I'm not expecting her to write more, because she tends to forget when she says things like that.
Should I respond now, or should I wait? I don't know what to say... I know she wants me to feel good, and I know she understands. I just wish I was able to tell her things out-loud, instead of through email. I don't see her again until late August, so I guess I'll have to wait to work on that until then.
It may seem like I express myself better through writing, but it took me a long time to write that email, and even when it was written, it sat on my computer for weeks and I would change things almost every day. So, I don't know that I express myself better that way, but maybe it's just easier for me. Then again, this could just be the depression talking.
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