Posted by Dory on June 11, 2007, at 19:33:22
The first thing he brought up was my message about the financial situation. Before he could say anything or offer any solution i told him i was making decisions about what i could and couldn't do and i decided i would continue with him, that it was too important. i said that sometimes i would not be able to do weekly sessions. i did NOT want him to offer me any sort of payment reduction or plan or anything. It would make things strange for me. In fact, i don't like to discuss money/payment or anything of the sort with him... it struck me wrong when he said off hand about something that "...that's what you pay me for.." It makes it weird.
We talked some about the current situation, but i won't talk about that on the boards. i pretty much said i am sick of talking about a certain thing. ENd of discussion.
i really wanted to get into a talk about trust and connection. So i just dove in. i re-opened our talk about defining what trust means. After a lot of talking we came to the conclusion that for *me* to say i trust him means i feel he hears me, the real me. The i feel he understands and that he can pick up on the feelings that i can't express or to know when to try and palpate that. i need to know he can hear me crying inside. That is trust.
i am very happy we got to that point. i feel very satisfied. It was a very good session. :o)
He said he understood that i need a lot of validation because others have not given it to me and i tend to downplay my own experiences. He said he understood that i need him to name things when i can't, and to use specific words, or labels for things when i can't... and he used a specific example that hit home and i knew he got it.
i told him the connection had been damaged some when he was away... and because of the events that occurred while he was away. But today did a LOT to re-connect. i feel really good about today.
poster:Dory
thread:762467
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